Aww I know. He's been with Ashura for years upon years, it would really hurt him if he died. But because the shadows back Ashura up, it's better he be the one who dies, rather than Blackout or Eris, since they don't have automatic backup like he does.
Teh, he's drilled it into Blackout's head, but he's never let himself die to really prove it. And he has only very few who he'll openly show compassion to; Blackout, Eris, and Luna. Rorek is, well, getting there. :/